bye grandma

Yup, my grandmother died. We saw it coming, but still, just not fair. She had a long life though and she was so wonderful and small and kind. ::sigh:: I can't go to the funeral either due to job obligations and basically, I just can't afford it. :-/

Life is good and bad. I'm happy and yet really confused about a few things. Self sabotage is a dangerous dangerous thing, people.

I'm so tired, I can't think anymore. Sleep will add some clarity, or completely fuck it up. Like it did last night. Dreams really mess with your head sometimes. I mean REALLY.