addiction

I went shopping for the first time, real shopping, since my accident. It was quite a success and failure all at once. It was a success because I found stuff I really like, and a failure because I spent money when I shouldn't have. I got a fabulous soft creme sweater, two new clutch purses, and a green graphic tee that compliments my skin color (and not in the mint chocolate way). Adam was the surprise friend today, joining me, Becky, and Jessica at the Cracker Barrel. He is so funny. We are just chatting and waiting for our meal when he all of a sudden blurts out a very personal new thing in his life. I loved it. I love him. He is seriously a gem into today's world of fake jewels. AND he is a great shopping buddy. He tagged along to Old Navy and gave solid and sound advice on each piece of clothing or purse I considered. I want him to shop with me everytime now. :-P You would never think he was a fashion guy with his personality. It was very refreshing and really nice to hang out with him - first time since the accident. His dad almost operated on my hip, but his partner passed me up. Fate at work again.

I have a problem with purses. I am addicted. I can't stop. It's like Carrie and her shoes. I am Vonda and her purses. I own so many and switch it up as often as I can. And I am constantly on the prowl for new ones, something different, something fresh, something classy. A new purse is as good as my pain medication - gives me a little relief from the day to day miseries.

I also picked up Jon Stewart's new book on audio, yay! And also added to the pile Amy Tan's new book The Opposite of Fate. I can't wait to get into both of those.

Today, I gave my wheelchair a rest and did a lot of crutching around. People were very happy to see me up and about. The wheelchair is so harsh and makes them think I'm worse than I really am. The crutches add some optimism. Anyways, I crutched into the Cracker Barrel and sat in a normal seat. I used the wheelchair to shop though, I can't stand around for that long. But I did crutch into the movies and man, that was a lot of work to do. I almost even fell because I thought I could get up the stairs to a better seat, but the way the stairs are designed stopped that idea. Nonetheless it was really nice to sit in a regular seat and sit between people instead of being the wheelchair girl on the end. We saw Shark Tales, which Ian came to, and it was very cute. And seriously, Ian has one of the best smells ever and I don't think he even works at it (he thought I was weird when I mentioned it haha). It's a clean soap smell and I love it. I think I just love clean smells in general. If you bottled tide into a cologne, I would buy and force my significant other to wear it because I would be in love with it/him. :-)

I really miss my crucifix necklace. I need to get it fixed. I wish you all could see it. It's wicked bent from the accident (it used to look like this ---> l and now looks like this ---> ( so that is pretty bad and means I must have bent it when my chest hit the steering wheel at 40 mph). I think the necklace caused the bone bruise I have just at the start of my collarbone. It needs to be fixed. I miss it. It feels weird to feel around my neck and not feel it. It's one of the rare gifts I have from my parents, so I really treasure it.

Kerry was a clear winner from the debates. Kickass. Screw Poland, George W. Bush, and screw you! :-) It was awesome to watch it with my dad and dislike Bush together. Funniest part of the night was when my brother couldn't remember Bill Clinton's running mate. I called my brother Al Gore for the rest of the night.

Do crushes ever really die or go away? I think you surpress them and they might never resurface again, but I do believe you always hold a certain flame for that person. I'm not saying I like anyone in particular right now, I am largely in the void. Just kinda there. But it's interesting to think back to the people I've liked. I am friends, good friends, with almost all of them. It's just weird to realize that I used to like some of these people as more than a friend... and I see why I did but now I think "That would never work out." It's humorous to ponder what if's and the never happened disasters. Where is my love life going? I've got an idea of a possible direction. Let's see how well that goes when I get back to school.

Best line from the weekend: Becky' s dad seeing me and saying "Hey crapple!" Man, I love that family.